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For most of us, our biggest expense is the roof over our head. One of the best tickets to gaining financial freedom and minimizing one’s eco-footprint is to reduce that expense.

The following story of a house for sale in my Daytona Beachside neighborhood is an example of a phenomenon I see as harmful, that is playing out city-wide (and across the whole country).

Last year at this time, the house — a 2-bedroom, 1-bath, 800-square-foot bungalow typical of our charming though somewhat blighted historic neighborhood — went up for sale for 70K.

What would have been great is if some local who works at one of the nearby restaurants, stores, hotels, or other nearby businesses could have bought it. Someone currently renting, paying $900 or $1200 in rent — if they were to buy this house, their monthly payment (total of mortgage + taxes and insurance etc) would be below $900. If two people went in together, that’d be 450 per person! Wow! They could buy it and fix it up themselves and have a stable place to live.

The problem is, of course, that the working people in this neighborhood don’t tend to have the credit rating to get a loan, or the cash for a down payment, etc.
So the house got snapped up last year by an “investor.” Sometimes these investors do little more than slap on a coat of paint and put in new (supposedly attractive) counters and cabinets before putting the house on the market at a jacked-up price. In this case they did a pretty extensive rehab. Then soon after, a tenant moved in.

But now, a year later, the house is up for sale … for 178 K. Of course no local will be able to buy it now, if they couldn’t buy it last year for 70K. And I assume the tenant will be looking for a new place to live (unless the new buyer wants to be a landlord, which would be OK, except too bad the person living in the house paying 1,200 a month could not have afforded to buy it for 70K last year and would now be the owner-occupant).

So the cycle starts again. The ad starts out with the inevitable words, “INVESTOR ALERT”!

I don’t have any easy answers for this, but it keeps me awake at night and it is part of what motivates me to want to set up a grassroots local housing fund, which anyone could invest in, with the intent of helping locals buy homes and live in them.
Have you noticed this phenomenon in your neighborhood, of houses being bought mainly by investors rather than by people who just want to live in the house? I see signs all over town that are obviously targeting investors. I live in a tourist town so to some extent that’s inevitable. But I Zillow-snoop houses all over the country and see that it’s a pretty widespread phenomenon.

In small towns and historic urban cores, particularly, it’s pretty easy to find houses for sale for 50K, 40K, 30K, or even less. (Try Baltimore or Detroit if you want to be really startled at how low an old brick house/rowhouse can be priced.)
And yet the rental estimates are always hefty, like 900 or 1,200 a month or more, even in what are obviously blighted areas.

As I said, I don’t have any easy answers for this. However! From a reduce-your-overhead, low-footprint-living standpoint, there is a potential bright spot. In these times of rocky job prospects and high housing costs, houses for sale in old downtowns might just be the next frontier for many people.

My suggestion would be: If you don’t already have an occupation that is location-independent (writing, computer stuff, art, some sales and customer-service jobs, etc.) or universally in demand (carpentry, nursing, sewing, plumbing, midwife/doula, food-growing, landscaping), try to get yourself into such an occupation.

If you feel you need more education, look into trade school, community college courses, or even an informal apprenticeship. No college debt, and you will always be able to get work. Our communities can use many more skilled tradespeople right now.

Then, if you can manage, pool money with family or friends and find a low-priced fixer-upper house and buy it free and clear rather than take on a mortgage. Live there together and fix it up. I researched house prices in every state, and except in 3-4 states I found at least some houses under 50k, or even 30-40k, or less, in small towns or central urban areas.

If you have a useful trade or skill, you will have work wherever you go. So pick the place where you have friends, or where you like the climate (meteorological AND social), or where you can move together with a few friends/family members and be pioneers together. You might not even have to leave your own town to do this.

I have recently seen a number of houses for sale for 50-60k right here in my own adopted hometown, Daytona Beach. Rather than become investor-fodder, they could just as well be bought by people who just want a place to live, and create a resilient community together.

Same applies to commercial buildings. Buy one and contribute to the revitalization of a historic Main Street. Find meaning by building a life in a new place; adopt that place; really contribute.

If all of this sounds like too much work, or if you’re not willing to be a “pioneer” on the “next frontier” of old small towns or rundown urban core areas, well, I understand. For me, though, knowing about these low-priced houses represents a ray of hope. A ray of hope for myself, yes (in some hypothetical future, should sea-level rise or societal shifts force me at age 65 or 75 or older to leave my nice little $124K paid-for house near the ocean, I now have the reassurance I’d be able to find another place where I’d be able to live comfortably at my preferred income level of $1,000-1,300 a month before taxes).

But even more, the existence of $50K houses in almost every state of the union represents a ray of hope for the many people right now who are dealing with precarious employment and housing instability at the same time.

With the job market rocky, people might not be any worse off in a small town or a “run-down-but-livable-with-the-right-companions” industrial burg than in the more bustling, bigger, shinier cities where they’ve been living for job reasons, but where jobs are not such a sure thing anymore and costs remain high. Moving to some new place and starting over isn’t easy (between growing up in a military family and then, as an adult, needing to undertake a decades-long quest to “find myself and where I belonged,” I’ve done it many times), but it can be richly rewarding.

On that note, my favorite tip for surviving and thriving in a new place: Go there with the determination to give as much as you get, or more. A sense of mission, even. Be it protecting the environment, starting an urban agriculture movement, promoting literacy in an under-served neighborhood, or whatever your passion is. A lifelong dream of living in walking distance of the beach was what brought me to Daytona Beach. But what has kept me here, even when I went through some extremely lean times (as my “freelance eco educator” skills/knowledge that had earned me a livelihood back in Austin were not valued in the local economy here), was a sense of deep purpose. A deep-seated drive to contribute.

If you move to a new place with a heartfelt wish to serve, you’ll do fine and eventually find your niche even if you first end up going through some rough times like I did for a few years. That determination to serve will get you through hell and high water.

And that low-priced house will help you a lot with the financial part. By the way, my paid-for house was bought with money I inherited after my Mom passed. Had I not inherited that money, I would take the “find a 50K-or-less house and two friends to co-buy it” approach. There are lots of ways for three industrious people with good hearts to scrape together 50K, even if the goodness of their credit doesn’t quite match the goodness of their hearts.

Further Exploration:

• Ooh! Check this out!! On the tangent of the “grassroots local housing fund” which I suggested above … As opposed to a general fund, Small Change takes a project-by-project approach. Various in-town projects such as constructing 2 starter homes on a vacant lot; renovating an old motor court to be homeless housing, etc. Most of the projects appear to be in LA, Philly, Pittsburgh; I’m posting it here as an example of “grassroots investment oppty + socially beneficial building/rehab”. For each project, the amount being raised and the expected return on investment is listed.

• House listing: Canadian Ark for Sale (house + thrift-store business in Hope, BC). They don’t list the price, and I’m pretty sure they would want quite a bit more than 50K. But I include this here because the lengthy write-up is an example of the pioneer mentality I was talking about. Moving somewhere with the idea of making yourself a pillar of a small local economy.

• “A Bigger Picture,” by James Howard Kunstler. I read Kunstler’s blog regularly and I have had many of his same predictions about how things have gone and will go. Some might find him doom-y at first. But I feel he’s realistic, as well as offering pragmatic hope, as evidenced in this quote: “Many people will seek to escape the places they live now to find new homes and livelihoods elsewhere. These demographic movements are already underway. … Right now, start planning where you might go and what you can do. The turmoil will be filled with opportunity to find ways to be useful to other people, to devise work-arounds for ruptured systems and relationships, in getting food to people, making things they need, distributing them, fixing things that are broken where possible, and moving people and stuff from point A to point B. There will be plenty of work for people who are willing to do it. Keep in mind that it’s entirely up to you to make good choices. Don’t despair, and if you find yourself veering toward it, get over yourself. It’s just part of becoming stronger than you thought you could be, and the times will require it of you anyway.” By the way, this article was the source of the “Canadian Ark for Sale” link that I posted above.

Someone in one of my permaculture groups posted about a leaky washing machine. (Another problem I’ve been hearing about from many people lately.) All the comments in response were along the lines of testing the leak, calling repair people, etc. Since no one spoke up for the primitive, simple approach, I contributed this comment:

I prefer washing by hand for this reason (I’m not good w machines or plumbing, and don’t like spending money/time on repairing them).
In the past I have used a hand-cranked washer or even a giant (farm-size) salad spinner. Now I just use a small tub and wring out stuff by hand before hanging it on the line. (Might sound laborious but I like keeping fit, and it’s free, unlike the gym.) I always do laundry outdoors so leakage/spillage is a non-issue. And the water (typically just a gallon or two) gets dumped on whatever tree or other plant needs it.

People used to machine-washing clothes might say, “But I’ve got too many clothes to wash by hand.” Actually I have a sneaking suspicion, based on observations of my own patterns (I had a washer and dryer under my own roof throughout my childhood and for a few years of my adult life) as well as other households I’ve observed, that having a washing machine actually prompts people to have more clothes and do more laundry.

Hand-washing is easy-peasy, drama-free! BTW if and when my solar dryer breaks, I will just go get a new length of rope. 😉

On an eco note, washing machines can be fairly eco-friendly, especially if you wash in cold water and forgo machine-drying. Some washing machines these days use only 10-15 gallons of water per load.

Seeking out numbers, I found this article by Herb Kirchhoff at homeguides.sfgate.com which says that according to the U.S. Department of Energy, the average 2.1-cubic-foot energy-efficient small washer uses only about 8.35 gallons per load. Even a large (4-cubic-foot) energy-efficient washer uses just 11.75 gallons. Not bad, right? But then I went on to read that the average household does 392 loads of laundry a year. (Whether using a small or a regular-sized washer.) That’s more than a load every single day! OK, that’s just nuts. So households end up using 3-4,000 gallons of water a year, or more, just to wash clothes.

I’m thinking that for people who don’t have a washer under their own roof and have to schlep their clothes to a laundromat, the average number of loads per year might be quite a bit lower.

My point being, sometimes automation (especially if it’s right there under one’s own roof) doesn’t end up accomplishing its goal of reducing work, but instead just ratchets us up to “do more” and consume more resources.

While it may not be for everyone, I’ll stick with my enjoyable outdoor clothes-washing by hand, which uses maybe 8 gallons a week in a heavy week.

Several friends have posted lately about having to deal with water-heater repair or replacement, an expensive proposition. I sometimes forget about the existence of water heaters, especially now, in the dead of summer, when I wouldn’t use one even if I had one.

I went water-heater-free a few years ago and never looked back. For showers I use sun-heated or just plain cold water (which I’m fine with; actually prefer cold showers for most of the year in TX and FL, and can tolerate them even in the cold months if I’ve been jogging, doing manual labor etc).

The easiest and cheapest way to get hot water is by letting a hose full of water sit in the sun. It’s easy to rig up an outdoor shower or dishwashing stand. Myself, I tend to just go with the “Peace Corps” method — filling a pot with rainwater, then scooping out cupfuls and dumping them on myself. For some reason this is delightful to me, especially on a super hot day but even on some cooler days. But if I wanted something a bit fancier I’d use the hose method, with a shower-head hooked up. (Outdoor shower cabanas/stalls are a very common thing here on the Atlantic coast of Florida, as I imagine they are in most warm-weather beach towns. But no reason you couldn’t have one, at least in summer, wherever you live.)

For washing dishes, I mostly just use cold water except if it’s a greasy dish or something, then I boil up some water in a kettle.

I wash my laundry in cold water.

As I type this I think it seems old-fashioned, but then again most people throughout history lived this way. And I love the money savings and love never having to think about a water heater leaking, breaking down, etc.

On a trip through rural Japan in the 1990s, I met and was invited to stay with a family. They had a wood-heated bathtub. (I remember the tub itself being made of wood but my memory is notoriously unreliable and I could be totally making that part up.) Their kitchen just had a tiny on-demand water heater, same as the one in my minuscule Tokyo apartment. Those tankless heaters can be OK for low-volume use and right at the tap; not so great for large volumes or if the water has to travel far.

If you’ve never tried living without a water heater, try it out! You might be surprised. Back before I started my “low-footprint living lab” thing, I used to be terrified of someday not being able to have hot showers, due to the Zombie Apocalypse or some other TEOTWAWKI event. Though I still hope never to encounter the flesh-eating undead, particularly while bathing, at least I’ve lost my terror of living without hot showers. (I used to be really skinny and was terrified of cold weather in general. “Cold weather” being anything below 70 Fahrenheit. I’m not so skinny now, just a normal healthy weight, which helps.)

Whether or not you choose to have a water heater, it’s freeing to know you could live without one if you needed to. “Emergency” appliance repairs (water heaters, dishwashers, etc.) rack up a lot of expense and cause great anxiety, which for me tends to outweigh whatever comfort and convenience I would get from big appliances like a water heater. Plus, well, I’m hardcore into the ultra-low-footprint thing! And a water heater is among the top electricity users in a household.

Further Reading:

Michael Bluejay’s article about how to save money on water heating was written some years back but is still very helpful. As is his whole website, which is my #1 go-to resource on saving electricity.

One of my favorite ideas for enhancing the human-built environment is to have plenty of fruit trees, vines, and vegetable plants growing in the public space: in parks; along sidewalks; as living fences. As they say in real estate: “Location, Location, Location!”

One of our most foolish, and potentially fatal, human experiments is the one where we decided it’d be perfectly fine to not grow food near where people live, and to instead transport it from halfway across the country or around the world to our supermarkets. Bad idea! Let’s go ahead and quit this one before we have to see how it ends.

The other day while googling for lush fat yummy pictures of fruit trees and grapevines growing along city sidewalks, I instead stumbled on this article “5 Reasons Why Planting Fruit Trees Along Sidewalks Is a Terrible Idea.” Fortunately the five points are easy to refute.

1 – Most fruit would go unpicked, falling to the sidewalk and attracting wasps; creating a slip hazard. Ah, the good old “public safety” argument. First of all: The biggest public safety hazard in the United States is disease caused by bad dietary habits. I am pretty sure it exceeds the slip hazard. Anyway, it would be easy to ensure all the fruit gets picked. Publicize it widely so citizens know about it. People would be happy to harvest it for themselves, or to donate to food banks. And have city landscaping crews clean up any excess. You know, the landscaping crews who we now pay gazillions of our tax dollars to buzz-cut turf grass and make sure the ornamental shrubbery is perfectly square? They deserve a more worthwhile occupation, don’t you think? Yes, caring for fruit trees requires labor and special skill. But that translates into jobs and careers!! Imagine a city where the restaurants get to source at least some of their food from the immediate area. And where residents of all ages and educational levels are able to create their own cottage businesses around the public harvest. If my neighbor’s making jam, I’m buying some!

2 – Government won’t support it because of liability and expense. This is where the citizen push comes in. Citizens need to show their passion about this issue to help government see that it’s in our best interest to have a well-nourished population. Fear of litigation is always a concern, but some things are worth braving that for. Cities need to get some teeth in their legal departments. Food deserts are very unpopular these days; it’s a serious equity issue. Now that is a real liability. As for expense … See #1 above. I would love to know how much money a city spends on fussbudget grass-barbering, not to mention all that goes with it, such as application of chemicals.

3 – Pollution from passing cars could cause substandard fruit growth, disease, and so on. In every city I’ve visited, I’ve seen fruit trees growing just fine on private property despite exposure to automotive exhaust. Pollution from cars is a problem everywhere. Even on farms, pollution from mechanized equipment is surely an issue. Some fruit trees might not do well along city sidewalks, but that happens with purely ornamental plants too. At least with fruit trees we have a chance of harvesting something worthwhile. The article also said fruit trees are bad because we might have to spray chemicals to protect them — as if we don’t do that now for our vast expanses of turf grass and other “vanity landscaping.”

4 – Some fruit trees don’t live long, and might have to be replaced before they bear fruit. Yeah, that is a real possibility. Cities need to consult their local ag extension, Master Gardeners, and other experts to find the best varieties to plant. And cities should look into grapevines, kiwi fruit, and other non-tree fruit options as well.

5 – Fruit trees need a lot of sunlight. While there might not be enough sunlight on every street, that’s no reason not to plant at all. In addition, there are greens and other edible plants that do well in part shade; we can intersperse those with the fruit trees as conditions warrant.

Although the writer of this article doesn’t think fruit trees along sidewalks are a good idea, he or she does express a favorable view of community orchards and urban farms. And that’s something I can wholeheartedly agree with!

Recently I had the opportunity to give my “Soil 101” presentation, via Zoom, to my local chapter of Florida Native Plant Society.

Giving this presentation for the first time since the pandemic shutdown, I was reminded of how essential it is to get the word out about soil conservation. So I’m making you a post to highlight some of the main ideas, and share the sources I used.

• Soil consists of sand, clay, and silt in varying proportions, plus a substantial amount of air and water, plus organic matter (decaying leaves, microorganisms, etc.). Sand, clay, and silt are just names for rock particles, pulverized to varying degrees of fineness over time.

• A single teaspoon of healthy soil contains more soil microorganisms than there are people living on earth.

• Plants literally suck heat out of the air! That’s because photosynthesis (the process by which plants make food from sunlight) is an endothermic reaction. So the reason why you feel cooler when you walk past a clump of trees isn’t just because of the shade they create.

• Bare soil is exothermic (releases heat). In one experiment in a field on a 67-degree day (Fahrenheit), the temperature of a leaf surface was 59 (yes, cooler than the air temp); the temperature of a piece of paper was 89, and the temperature of bare soil was 138! Bare soil and pavement both contribute to heat-island effect.

• In addition to emitting heat, bare soil also releases carbon into the atmosphere (from decomposition of organic matter), and loses moisture over time. Allowing soil to remain bare (as opposed to covered by plants, mulch) leads to desertification. Up to 40% of rainfall comes from local evapotranspiration of water by plants (this is known as the “small water cycle”). When we denude the soil, we disrupt rainfall.

• Most of us, when we think about ways to mitigate climate change or extreme weather, the first thing that comes to mind is planting trees. While trees and other vegetation are great carbon sequesterers, the soil is even better at it. The pedosphere (the ground under our feet) sequesters four times as much carbon as the biosphere (vegetation and other living things). The great thing about working on soil is that, unlike planting and maintaining trees, it doesn’t require a green thumb, any money or even necessarily any outdoor space of your own!

• Got crappy soil? Super sandy, or mucky clay? No worries; the “fix” for poor soil is always “Add organic matter.” And the best way to do that is by composting. Which is super simple. See my previous post “Compost Basics.”

My Soil 101 presentation is available by Zoom, Facebook Live, or other channel of your convenience. I tailor it to your group’s goals and circumstances.

Further Exploration

*FREE RESOURCES:

– Betsy Ross presentation handout: “Living Soils: Bringing Dirt To Life. Soil Biology Impact on Soil Health, Pollution Control, and Plant Health.” http://www.bayoupreservation.org/BPASite/media/BPA/Symposium/2019/02-Bringing-Dirt-to-Life-Betsy-Ross.pdf

NRCS: visually appealing 2-page info handout “Soil Health Nuggets” https://www.nrcs.usda.gov/Internet/FSE_DOCUMENTS/stelprdb1101660.pdf

*PAYMENT REQUIRED:

– “Soil Is the Climate Solution” – Soil Advocate training webinar by Finian Makepeace (sometimes available for free by special offer; I paid the regular rate of $99 which I felt was well worth it. You get permanent access to all course materials including slideshow which you can edit to your needs).  Empowers you with the info & ideas to get out and be an advocate for soil restoration. https://www.onecommune.com/products/soil-is-the-climate-solution-with-finian-makepeace

– Soil-Food Web: Foundation Courses by Elaine Ingham https://www.soilfoodweb.com/foundation-courses-2/(The short course I took last year was free; this one is $5,000! Obviously not the same course. I will keep my eyes open for the link to the short, free course I took with her. But for now, this page gives you a feel for her courses.) 

– Soil-Food Web Consultant Training Program by Elaine Ingham (professional training including period of remotely-supervised hands-on training; price $3,000) (seems like a great potential career path; one would always be in demand and be helping the earth) https://www.soilfoodweb.com/training-program/

Crazy! I could have sworn I had already given you a post by this title, but apparently I had not. Please pardon me for waiting so long to create this post on such an important topic.

You can make composting as simple or as complicated as you want. I prefer simple. If you prefer complicated, Google will be happy to oblige! I specialize in simple. So here you go:

When you think about ways to mitigate climate change and extreme weather, what comes to mind? You probably said “planting trees.” But an even more powerful way is by adding organic matter to the soil. In other words: Compost! By composting your kitchen scraps and yard trimmings instead of sending them to landfill, you become a strong climate ally. 

There’s a lot of misinformation out there about composting. If done properly, compost is not messy or smelly. (In fact, it’s a lot less messy and smelly than putting your food scraps in the trash.) 

And it doesn’t require hard labor. If you’re fit enough to get in a car and drive somewhere, you’re fit enough to manage a compost bin. And you don’t need a yard or garden.  Whether you choose to collect your kitchen scraps in a tidy bin that fits under your kitchen sink, feed them to your worms in an in-house vermicompost box, or carry them out to a bin or pile in your yard, the basic principle is the same. Compost requires just four ingredients: 1) Air; 2) Water; 3) Greens; 4) Browns. 

“Greens” are kitchen scraps (vegetable, meat, cheese, coffee grounds, shrimp tails, etc.), and fresh yard trimmings. “Browns” are dried grass clippings or leaves, paper, cardboard scraps. Greens are rich in nitrogen; browns are rich in carbon. Together with air and water, they break down into a rich material that fertilizes the soil while sequestering carbon. Believe it or not, the pedosphere (soil) can sequester four times as much carbon as the biosphere (trees and other plants). But in order to accomplish this feat, the soil needs organic matter. That’s why composting is so important (besides radically reducing the bulk, weight, and odor of your household trash).

If composting seems like too much trouble to you, it’s probably just because you don’t realize how easy it actually is, or how much good it does the planet. Once you actually try it, you will be amazed at how easy it is. You simply alternate layers of greens and browns in your bin or pile, and nature takes care of the rest. I think of it as making layers of lasagna — microbial lasagna!

The main obstacle to composting is just … starting. Just start. It’s a natural process and you can’t go wrong. The main thing that turns people off, once they get started, is if the pile gets slimy and smelly. You haven’t made some horrible mistake. Don’t let this turn you off of composting. All this means is you need to add more “browns” to your pile. Dried twigs, dead leaves, hay, straw, dry grass clippings are all good.

(And: Contrary to popular belief, you can include meat scraps, cheese, and other animal products in the pile.)

One of the best ways we can show love for our kids and grandkids is by making sure we leave the world in better shape for them than we found it. This is far more important than showering them with expensive gifts. If we love our kids and grandkids enough to travel across the country or around the world to see them (and by the way, ideally we’re all purchasing carbon offsets for that travel — it only adds a few bucks to the ticket price, and it’s the right thing to do), we need to back up that love with strong eco action at the household level.

I have a lot of composting experience, from household to community scale, and am familiar with many different approaches. As part of the free “Deep Green” consultation that comes with your purchase of my book (and now also with your download of the free PDF version), I’m happy to help you research the best compost system for your circumstances, and get it set up.  

Lately I am feeling drawn more and more inward, finding stability and inspiration deep within myself. I’ve stepped down from several activities and committees; I’ve started feeling more zeroed-in on my own inner truth. With all that’s happening in the world — all the work that needs to be done — allowing myself to be drawn inward doesn’t make sense “on paper,” but the more I surrender to the pull, the more I feel in harmony with the universe and with my work. And then somehow it turns out I actually end up getting more writing, speaking, “green domestic science experiments,” and other work done! It’s like having my cake and eating it too. So I’m trusting myself and surrendering to the inward gravitational pull more and more.

It feels like a force of nature I’m surrendering to. Like a whirlpool that leads to my innermost, quietmost core. A space of stillness where no actions are taken unless absolutely necessary.

Over the past few months I’ve been compiling helpful links and snippets related to “surrender.” Hope you find the following reads as supportive and enjoyable as I do. Some of them are old favorites of mine; others reached my inbox more recently.

Quotes:

• “Right now, we are imaginal cells in the cocoon of Covid-19. I believe we emerge from this cocoon as humans who value the earth and each other more than we ever have.” — Cynthia Schaefer, founder of GrowSocial, a new network designed to connect people with resilience resources in their local area; www.growsoc.com is the link

• The Story of Imaginal Cells (from Imaginal Labs): “We all grew up knowing a bit about the metamorphosis of a caterpillar into a butterfly. The truly amazing part of this process, however, is in the scientific detail of how it actually happens in nature. After a period of ravenous consumption, a caterpillar finds an appropriate perch and forms a chrysalis – so far so good. The end result, we know, is a butterfly, but the truly astonishing thing is that there is no structural similarity at all between a caterpillar and a butterfly. Inside the chrysalis the caterpillar, unable to move, actually dissolves into organic goop. Cells, which had been dormant in the caterpillar and which biologists have the poetic genius to call ‘imaginal cells,’ begin a process of creating a new form and structure. At first these imaginal cells – the seeds of future potential, which contain the blueprint of a flying creature—operate independently as single-cell organisms. They are regarded as threats and are attacked by the caterpillar’s immune system. But they persist, multiply, and connect with each other. The imaginal cells form clusters and clumps, begin resonating at the same frequency and passing information back and forth until they hit a tipping point. They begin acting not as discrete individual cells but as a multi-cell organism – and a butterfly is born.”

• “Just as with any potent medicine, we have to stay the whole course of treatment to get the full benefits, preferably, without ambivalence. Most importantly, we need to use the power of our minds to optimize this once-in-a-lifetime FGO (f**kin growth opportunity) by focusing on healing what truly ails us. Nearly everyone, to some degree or another, has been affected by the collective soul sickness of humanity for most of our lives, in terms of what truly gives meaning and value to this precious incarnation.” — from the email newsletter of Joan Pancoe, Modern Mystic, JoanPancoe.com

• “There are times when our whole world seems to be falling apart around us, and we are not sure what to hold onto anymore. Sometimes our relationships crumble and sometimes it’s our physical environment. At other times, we can’t put our finger on it, but we feel as if all the walls have fallen down around us and we are standing with nothing to lean on, exposed and vulnerable. These are the times in our lives when we are given an opportunity to see where we have established our sense of identity, safety, and well-being. And while it is perfectly natural and part of our process to locate our sense of self in externals, any time those external factors shift, we have an opportunity to rediscover and move closer to our core, which is the only truly safe place to call home.” — Madisyn Taylor in When Our World Falls Apart, an article from her email newsletter (subscribe at DailyOM.com)

• “Resistance tends to strengthen the energies it attempts to oppose by giving them power and energy to work against. Additionally, resistance keeps us from learning more about what we resist. In order to fully understand something, we must open to it enough to receive its energy; otherwise, we remain ignorant of its lessons.” — Madisyn Taylor in The Wisdom of Surrender.

• “If I could not be peaceful in the midst of danger, then the kind of peace I might have in simpler times is meaningless. If I could not find peace in the midst of difficulty, I knew I would never know real peace.” — Thich Nhat Hanh

• “Despite the common belief that it is the speed and intensity of your efforts, your raw hustle that determines the pace at which you evolve and transform, nature seems to bring a much deeper truth: your transformation is directly related to the value, time, and energy you put into being still, staying connected, and operating from a place of inner solitude, listening, and witnessing… beauty. We face huge challenges regarding natural resources, climate changes, racial inequities, macro-economic shifts, and the entire ecosystem in which it all resides, all of which has been amplified throughout this global pandemic. Imagine what would happen if we stopped running in the lanes of old paradigms and paused the entire machinery of humanity to realize where we are – and recognize that this tipping point in our time is exactly what we have all been waiting for – a reason to pause. What if we stopped long enough to really take in the reality of the devastation we have created, in order to now recognize the opportunity that exists in another direction, one we’ve never, together, seen before – a new path, a chance to transform. It’s accessible now, we just have to be still long enough to find it. Let’s pause for another beat, to embrace the opportunity for a non-linear transformation…” — Dr. Zach Bush

• “When a cat falls out of a tree, it lets go of itself, becomes completely relaxed, and lands lightly on the ground. If the cat made up its mind that it didn’t want to fall, it would become tense and rigid and would just be a bag of broken bones upon landing. In the same way, it is the philosophy of the Tao that we are all falling out of a tree, at every moment of our lives. As a matter of fact, the moment we were born we were kicked off a precipice and we are falling—and there is nothing we can do to stop it. So, instead of living in a state of constant tension and clinging to all sorts of things that are actually falling with us because the whole world is impermanent, be like a cat. Don’t resist it.” — Alan Watts

Deities who embolden me to surrender to the massive wave of chaos:

Akhilandeshivari “The Goddess Who Is Never Not Broken.” (Note: Akhilandeshivari is a Hindu goddess; this website presents an interpretation of her by practitioners of a Wiccan path that draws inspiration from gods and goddesses of many different religions.) “She shows us the power and opportunity of being broken into pieces by heartache, disaster, great fortune, and other life changes and traumas. However She takes this to the furthest extreme, purposefully keeping Herself broken wide open, allowing Herself to flow with every current, creating and fragmenting and recreating Herself endlessly.” “It’s normal to fear and resist change, but Akhilandeshvari whispers to us also of freedom — liberation from the past, from habits and wounds, from stifling routines, from everything that once was good but has become a burden or a prison. Liberation, indeed, from all the illusions of the ego.”

Books:

When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times (Pema Chödrön and 2 more)

The Magic of Findhorn (Paul Hawken): Incredible book, must-read! These people were divinely guided to start an RV park food-garden community by the sea in northern Scotland back in the 1970s, after losing their jobs at a hotel. They totally lived by intuition; grew a phenomenally lush garden by intuitively connecting with plant devas. Made sudden life-changes that made no sense “on paper” but were totally right. Really, surrender is a bold spiritual action, and this lovely book is a reminder of that. Findhorn is now a thriving eco-village that attracts people from all over the world.

The Grace in Dying (Kathleen D. Singh): Sterling counsel about surrender. Not just for the dying, but for all of us.